Preplanning New Year’s Resolutions

On New Year’s Eve 2011, I spent it in Richmond. My exboyfriend and I traveled there on a whim and I got to ring in the New Year 2012 in Richmond. The past three years I have ringed in the New Year with my best friends in Virginia Beach. This year, I am supposed to work in Norfolk but it’s up in the air.

Mondays and typically my day off. The other night, since I will likely be working New Year’s Eve and day and won’t be able to get off and be able to go out. I wanted to do something for myself.  So, on a whim, I booked a night in Kitty Hawk on my day off towards the end of the month. I am not going to stay down there more than a night but I want to treat myself a bit, watch the sunrise on the beach (or just sit on the beach in the dawn hour weather pending), and do a little self reflection about 2017. I also plan to go back to Bodie Lighthouse and probably hit the Wright Brother’s Memorial as well.

When I did my trip back in May, I didn’t just visit Bodie Lighthouse, I visited Manteo and the Roanoke Colony, Hatteras and Hatteras Lighthouse, and the Wright’s Brother Memorial for the thousandth time. Hatteras struck the strongest cord with me when I watched Labrador and Florida currents go against one another. Bodie Lighthouse was the swamp castle of lighthouses in my mind. I think I’ll start with driving down to Hatteras in the day, spending the night in Kitty Hawk, and drive to Bodie Lighthouse the next day before I head back home and to work that night. And watch the sunrise early or something similar in the mean time.

I’ve always been a bit more earnest about New Year’s rather than Christmas. Don’t get me wrong, I love Christmas and everything that it represents, but New Year’s…hm…New Year’s is always something special.

I always try and keep it simple. Be healthy and happy. That’s all I want. 2016 was such a difficult year for me. I feel down a deep, dark hole, my drinking got really bad, I amassed a bunch of credit card debit. June. Things were uncertain. I wasn’t fighting with my dad, we were making amends. Then he went in the hospital. Then he got diagnosed with cancer. Then he died in less than a week. The latter half of the year was marked with uncertainty, new jobs, and just trying to figure out life everyday.

I am at the unhealthiest I have ever been in my life. But every new year, I tell myself, my life’s gonna change. It’s going turn around. Well, 2017, I am trying a different mantra. I’m gonna change my life around.

So 2017. Resolutions: be healthy and happy. What does that exactly entail?

Healthy. It took me years to get to where I am health wise. My drinking didn’t get bad over night. My weight didn’t go to where it was overnight. It took time. Years and months. To get back down to a healthy weight, to cut drastically back on my drinking, and get better at doing one things I fell in love with back in 2015, bodyboarding. And branch out to body surfing, surfing, and skateboarding. Another aspect of this is the gym. I have been going at least once a week since October, which is a start. But with 2017, I want need to make that a part of my weekly routine, like a few times a week. Hopefully, that in combination of cutting back with my drinking, hopefully I can get back on the right track to getting healthy again and going back out into the ocean again and finally mastering that ollie.

Happiness wise? Shit. That is so large. I want to be happy with myself. That there is a tall order.

Back when I was 22, I worked two jobs up until I was 25. Usually without any days off, I worked everyday, except the odd holiday. I also managed to go to YMCA even though I was extremely tired and do pilates and yoga for a few months. I got down to my lowest weight since high school, and while I was constantly tired, I was content. I just felt chill about everything. So, yeah, I work two jobs again. I really want to get out of working restaurants but we’ll see. But what makes me happy? Writing. The beach. Finding myself out of negative situations that drove my drinking for the past couple of years.

So, the first three months of the year, I have trips planned to similar with what I did in May when I went down to the Outer Banks in January, I’m traveling up to Alexandria for a weekend in February, and down to Buxton, NC, in March. During this time too, I resolve to just try to go to the gym more regularly, write everyday, and just try to be healthy. I really need to get healthy. Here’s to hoping that 2017 will be better than 2016.

And Happy Holidays.


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